Rose Ann Piersol 57-17Β 

They say once you put something on the internet it is there forever, that is my attempt today.  My mom passed away August 12, 2017, her obituary was not befitting what her life was.  I’m going to say she was no angel, but who is?  She chose to be a mom at the age of 16 in a time when teen moms were sent to “live with an aunt and uncle out of town”.  She married my dad and they made 3 more babies by the time she was 21.  They didn’t workout, she was a young single mom.  I believe she did the best she could.  She taught us to love and show empathy.  She was in her 30’s when she decided to get her GED and went to nursing school! She maintained a 4.0 and from what I hear she was pretty competitive in school to try to keep the best grades.  She was a critical care nurse for many years, and then took on roles that were not at the bedside.  She missed being at the bedside, she loved it.  She would tell me stories good and bad, but what always stood out was how much she cared.  Her patients got real baths with soap and water,  hair washed, and you better believe if they needed to be turned every two hours.. it got done.  Seven years ago she endured the terrible heartbreak of losing a child, my sister Theresa, to a drug overdose.  My mom never recovered from that loss.  The years following were cycles of love and then fights.  It was such a vicious circle, there was no choice but to pull away from her.  In turn, she lost her three remaining children.  My mama was a good person, the first at your side if there was a crisis.  Ready to take up for the underdog.  Myself, my sister and my brother loved her, as only a child could love a mom.  My mom was in the ICU for 3 weeks with what was initially pneumonia. We were never told.  They were able to wean her from sedation and had “shown improvement”, as evidenced by opening her eyes a few times. She was no longer sick enough for the hospital.  She was being transferred to a long term care hospital for rehab, still on a ventilator, and barely responsive.  I believe the two days she opened her eyes was her rally, she was ready to pass to whatever is next.  She went into respiratory arrest and was without oxygen for 10 minutes.  She was a full code and got CPR which saved her body but left her brain dead.  She was taken back to the hospital where they continued to “do everything” to save her body.  At this point someone stepped up and said that her kids should be called.  Within minutes of receiving that phone call,  the three of us rushed to each other, and then together to her bedside.  My mom made her wishes very clear, she never wanted to be in the state that she was.  Trach, vent, feeding tube, bedsores, hair matted, incontinet of stool.  Because the people in charge of her healthcare were uneducated about the decisions they were making, the last weeks of my moms life were her worst nightmare.   The next day my mom tried to die again..3 times, and they kept bringing her back.  After the 3rd time she was made a do not resuscitate if she were to arrest again.  She was then transferred to what we assumed would be the room in which she would pass, and soon.  We stayed by her side.  We gave her baths, talked to her, cried on her, held her hand, forgave, apologized, played songs, never left her alone.  She held on.  She was then transported to hospice.  The people in charge of her allowed us one last night with her and we had to be gone by the next morning.  She passed away 5 days later.  

I want the world to know she was here, and she deserved more than the 5 lines in her obituary.  I don’t want that to be her legacy. She was a loved mom of Chrissy, Theresa, Kimba, and John.  We hope she found peace and is with our sister. 

words

screamed, spoken, whispered

words

waiting to be considered
taken too lightly

nobody is listening

taken too literally

the effects deafening
picking and choosing what she said

editing and arranging 

after her voice went dead

body remains, her heart beats inside

stuck in this shell, technically alive
she spoke the words 

β€œPlease don’t leave me like this”

feathery, airy, and easily dismissed
she spoke the the words

β€œKeep them from there”

and these are the words to which they adhere
clinging to words that perpetuate hate

enforcing the rules to keep us away

a final chance, its not too late

maybe her spirit led them to sway
a call in the night

the words don’t make sense

she’s losing the fight

come make amends
three by her side

her flesh and blood

scars they cant hide

bringing nothing but love
words that were spoken 

all disappeared 

children that were broken 

proved that they cared
holding her hand

kissing her cheek

she understands

no words to speak
   ~Kimberly Pusey

Author: Kimberly Pusey

Hi there!! Allow me to introduce myself, if you had not figured it out my name is Kimberly (Kim for short). I am a mixed media artist, although sometimes my media isn't mixed at all...hmm. I live to create art, I don't discriminate!! It is my dream to be able to sustain myself as a working artist, in the meantime I am happy to continue my day job as an RN. Thank You for checking out my artwork, it is my hope that you found something that made you smile :)

24 thoughts on “Rose Ann Piersol 57-17Β ”

  1. Again Kim, beautiful words. Your mom was proud of all of her children. She was on duty the day my Dad passed, I saw her in the hall after the floor had called a code. I asked her to please check on my Dad……she came out of the room nodding her head, sobbing, and we knew. She reassured us that everything was done to try and save my Dad. She loved my Dad, and had spent so much time with him years past. I believe that the death of a child does some crazy things to your mind and soul, it steals a piece of you that you’re never going to get back. Know, she loved you all and she was an amazing mom, and a great nurse. My heart hurts for you all.
    Love, Lorraine

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  2. Tears to my eyes. Am so sorry for you all. I have so many wonderful memories with my favorite aunt, they are close to my heart. If I can do anything let me know. I love you! Aunt Roseann is so proud of you all.

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  3. I am so sorry for your lost!
    I loved your mom as she was my mom!
    She always took care of me and she was so proud of all you!
    God received a precious angel!
    God BLESS and beautiful words!!

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    1. Beautiful Kim just like u & your MomπŸ’—
      Thoughts & Prayers to u & your famiy
      Hugs friend πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’› She was amazing she helped me through thr difficult time of my Dad dieing & when my husband was hospitalized several times She was one if the most compassionate women I was Blessed to know & The Best Boss Ever πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œ Peace to u Friend πŸ’œ

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  4. Dear Kim, Chrissy and John, I’m so sorry to hear about your moms passing, we had some good talks and laughs at TTH, she was so nice to us in the mailroom and a hard worker! She will be missed! Prayers for you! Mary Jazwiecki

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  5. So sorry Kimmy. There are many bumps in the road when it comes to our mothers. This I know very well. But fortunately you were able to spend the time you had with her and that’s what counts. She knows you loved her and were right by her side. I’ll be praying for you and your family’s peace and comfort. Love youπŸ’. Alice

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  6. Kim your words are beautiful !! You have so many true talents!! So sorry about your mom glad you got those last days with her !! My prayers go out to your family and friends!! Never hide your true talents! Be you!!!

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